Gosh I havent written in a while… but I have to say my smell has changed… (i bought a new perfume its amazing jajajaja) anyway… so yeah this new business ur talking about… what does it consist of? are u a millionaire yet? ajaja yeah gosh since the last time i wrote to u life has changed in so many different ways… first with my decision to finally go to a real university and do my double major in art and journalism oh and please send me a picture of what u painted… were u on acid while u painted? im surprised it didnt get to u because heres a story… well i met another guy which i will explain later but heres a story… so u know thanksgiving the holiday where u eat turkey and shit and remember how the pilgrims killed all those innocent indiands.. why we celebrate such a devastating aspect of our history fuck what the hell should i know.. but its america and those americans with there weird ways (i myself being one of them)… anyway… so lorena came to visit me during thanksgiving.. it was great and so i had been liking this new man who i will explain about later.. but he invited us to a rave… so we went of course jajaja yeah it was amazing this huge massive party in baltimore like 2 hours away from here.. well u can imagine the excess of drugs and alcohol in such a place and there was so much music and it was a huge place with like 5 different rooms all with different kind of music for everyones style… so basically we were there but we had no weed and this made me sad cause i wanted to be high.. some how or another the guy i like whos name is tim casually got some acid and to my disbelief i took one.. shit but i shouldnt have because after that i started tripping out and going crazy i was lost… everything was chaotic the noise made me mad the people.. and then the police it was insane i just didnt let myself enjoy it thinking about all the things in my head… i hope the next time i do it which would make it my 5th time i actually sit down and enjoy the ride cause thats what i have been lacking all this time feeling and enjoying what i feel. so yeah i met this guy in poker its funny cause i have a friend whos gay and lives in this apartment close to where u used to live…well i was at his house one night and we just chill and get high together.. i have been doing that most frequently.. well yeah so suddenly this tall guy with the most lovely colored eyes i have ever seen approaches my friend as we’re outside of his apartment and says to him that he lives upstairs and blablabla and they should hang and blabla whatever i didnt know who he was… then the next week my friend calls me to play poker and i end up playing AT THIS GUYS HOUSE! weird coincidence huh? so yeah i see him again and think its funny and well nothing we talked a bit but whatever then the 2nd time i went to go play poker over there he asked for my number then invited me out and then one day we kissed and things happened in my mind… its crazy because we are not going out and i dont even know if we’re dating but since i met him ive been seeing him nonstop and everyday i just like him a little more.. and his eyes mesmerize me.. theyre green and large… i see him as someone who i could have something serious with so i dont want to ruin it talking about anyway i feel because last time i did that with the black man i just spit my mind out and he just swallowed my spit and spit it back out so im takiing it slow hoping he feels the same way and not thinking about what we could be but the moment while we are together… hes 21 and studies economics but is graduating very soon.. so enough about him… apart from that ive been great.. still no woman friend for me.. jaja but i got used to being a loser… even though i truly never feel alone despite the fact i sometimes am.. but dont feel lonely.. i love life and im out to enjoy it.. its splendid.. im on vacation now and hopefully leaving to new york tomorrow to see lore… i have to go but i just wanted u to know u are still a part of me and i carry ur essence wherever i go…
love always,
max
