HI!
I just want you to know that I am thinking about you. Sometimes it’s hard, because we where in love and that is something that means the world to me. When I loose love I loose the brightness in my eyes, and that means I loose a good part of my personality. I am hiding from the thoughts that are cause pain, so I hide from you too; however you are always somewhere deep in my mind, and by this you are in my every action.
When I wake up in the morning sometimes I can catch my last dream pictures, and by this I sometimes can see us sitting in front of the stars of the office of our apartment complex. We are horsing around, you jump into my lap, and you never let me go, you are just hanging there like a little monkey or something.
Then you are mad at me, and you won’t hold my hand. At first you hold just one finger then two, than an other one. Finally you hold my hand, and start to sing in a childish very clear beautiful voice, and I love you so deeply there. There is always a police car parking in the corner of the street, and we are shouting very loudly.
Oh Baby that feeling is now coming so strongly, I thought it’s gone, but its not. I am just hiding from it, and I will need to hide from it or it destroys me. That is the candle light I have been talking about.
Love
Peter
