HI
We are moving on, that is inevitable. You are hesitating to have a new relationship, or already started one, and I, well I am just trying to cool myself down, facing unequivocal facts, that I couldn’t face before. They where there of course, but my emotions blocked my rationality.
I want you to be happy, and I know what are you dealing with right now. You are a girl of action, you do everything with great passion, and you have many doubt. You are avoiding thoughts about me, that is what you should do. The growing sympathy to that guy, and the descending love to me slowly change the balance.
I want you to saddle, I want you to move on, I want you to be happy, and to be with someone. You are not writing me, because it brings up too much feelings.
Its hard for me to find anyone I am so close like I was with you. For you it might be similar, and I know how you are afraid to hurt or to be hurt. Just remember how hard was it for me to reach you in a way I finally did, and I wasn’t even close to perfection.
You are important to me. You are someone I loved, and someone who newer disappointed me. Someone I will miss every day. I am telling you this, because when you finally solved your life, and finally get over the sadness that my lack causes, you finally happy with a man, or got past the first couple of people after me, I want you to write to me. I want you to be happy when you think about me, I want you, to think about me as a far away friend you can count on.
This will need time. But sadly we have time, we are not in a hurry. You wont pick me up tomorrow, and I wont feel the rush that I am going away in weeks.
Look at me I made myself sad. What ever. Good luck with what I wrote, and fight your fears.
